A reason why you do not reach full Enlightenment is that you are attached to proving yourself to others (ego). If you have to prove yourself to others your Self-love and esteem are not high enough. Your heart is not fully open if you are attached to proving yourself to others. Your heart has to be fully open to fully open the higher chakras. A fully open heart is fundamental for fully realizing higher levels of awareness. Self-Realization is about you realizing you not others realizing you. You needing to prove yourself to others is a self-esteem maintenance strategy, a compensation strategy, and a form of neurotic competitiveness. Self-Realization is about you competing against yourself. The process of Enlightenment is about realizing you are not separate from others. You become fully conscious of yourself among others while realizing our interconnectedness. Self-Realization, or foundational Enlightenment, realizes, that is, sees and knows, that we are the same inside ourselves while our same Spirit/Self exists in our different bodies. When you fully realize yourself you fully realize others. At the transforming moment of foundational Enlightenment, you become fully awakened to the spiritual reality inside yourself while fully realizing what has been in front of your face all along about the interior reality of others. The veils of illusion that conceal the Self, in all, have been seen through and you are forever transformed.
Published by Gary Hobbins
I was born in Wisconsin to a Roman Catholic family. My mother June was a talented writer and started her own service club. My father Joe was a Right-of-Way agent for Bell telephone. Joe was an avid golfer and overall sports enthusiast. Joe would play sports with me and I became a life-long athlete. I was known as a rebel and was expelled from the Catholic school I attended at the age of fourteen. I was arrested at nineteen for being a thief and was placed on probation. Around this time, not being happy, I turned inward. I worked at different jobs that did not satisfy my budding inner life. I traveled down south several times reading books trying to find myself. In 1980, at the age of twenty-seven, I enrolled at a local college. I was now in an interesting environment. I was curious about almost everything and I eventually majored in speech and psychology or speaking and thinking. Many people told me that I was funny. I was able to make them laugh about unusual subjects. In the summers of 1981 and 1982, while still a college student, I traveled to Minneapolis and pursued the art of stand-up comedy. During these summers I would write comedy, run twenty-five miles a week and perform comedy at night. I was also a juggler but did not juggle in my stand-up act. I took up Hatha yoga and studied nutrition. In Minneapolis, I interacted with the local up-and-coming comedians. Minneapolis at that time had a small close-knit comedy culture that produced a good number of comedians and some became quite famous. I was making audiences laugh shortly after I started. During this time I was also performing comedy in other cities. I planned on being a professional comedian. Catholicism conditioned me to have a clear inner voice. I had to make people laugh and the only way I could see to do it was to be brutally honest with myself. I thought honesty would align me with common reality. The Sisters of St. Agnes, who taught me, always told me to tell the truth. So I was continually examining myself and weeding out delusional thinking. This became my way of life. One day in 1983, I was alone at my parents house and all of a sudden I had a massive spontaneous kundalini awakening. The awakening of this spiritual energy made me realize my self. I achieved the ability, among others, to see through other peoples egos or read their hearts. I was forever changed. In 1983 there was no internet or otherwise easily accessible information for me to be able to find out what had happened to me. Because of the massive explosion of energy my nervous and digestive system had to rebuild. Due to what happened to me, I changed my plans and soon moved in with my best friend and her son. We lived together for many years. I hid out in college going on and off for thirteen years. I read one book after another to understand what happened to me. I eventually received an M.A. in Speech/Rhetoric and also amassed many extra college credits. Currently I am an investor and forever a student. I am repentant of the trouble I got into years ago and the embarrassment it brought to my parents. People that knew me when I was a kid remark that I sure changed my ways. I went through what I call psycho/spiritual/physical alchemy or I transformed myself by healing the past and living in the ongoing present. View all posts by Gary Hobbins