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Words Are Traps

A koan is a paradoxical anecdote or riddle used in Zen Buddhism to demonstrate the inadequacy of logical reasoning and to provoke enlightenment.

I took a hit off the joint (entheogen) and instantly a vision of a cloud appeared before me. OH MY GOD! Pictured within this cloud were the heads of what I determined later to be spiritual masters. There was an Islamic man wearing a turban, a side view of a man, probably Hindu, who resembled Rabindranath Tagore, a side view of a man, probably Hebrew, who reminded me of Yassar Arafat, a Mongolian male, an African male, an Oriental male, a Native American chief with a full headdress, and a Carmelite nun. I was undergoing a mystical experience of profound expansiveness. I gazed at the cloud – huh? WOW! I sprung out of my chair and the cloud disappeared. I noticed an effulgent golden flaming light radiating off my body especially my arms. It was a color more brilliantly golden and luminous than I had ever seen before. AWESOME! Vibrating out of the ether came an external locution of my Psychology Of Consciousness professor Dr. Som Gay voicing the Zen koan he gave us in class words are traps. I am intuitively realizing that everyone is bombarded by language that holds us back and that we are all part of the exact same soul that is just in different bodies under different conditions. Eureka everybody is like this, I am entering the universal consciousness of us all, I thought to myself. Goosebumps covered my entire body as I realized this primal truth. I found God or The Holy Spirit or The Great Universal Spirit or Cosmic Spirit inside myself and everybody else at the same time. I broke through the cultural conditioning or worldly conditioning that we suffer from. A reason that we suffer is because we think we are separate from others.We all have the same model of inner self. You can call it what you want words are traps. Our intuition is beyond words and tells us the truth by knowing when we are centered. A vision, bathed in golden light, a locution, goose bumps, this is ecstasy. I achieved unity with Spirit. This state is called union in the study of Mystical Theology. The developmental stages that a person or spiritual aspirant can go through are explained in Mystical Theology as Purging, Illumination and Union. For understanding, see the book POWER VS. FORCE, by Dr. David R. Hawkins, 93-94. I reached a permanent higher level of peace while becoming much more settled. This is the peace they talk about that passes all understanding. This is the peace of Jesus and most of the saints and sages of all traditions. In this state the common feeling for the fear of death is lost and understandings of the afterlife are sensed.

Sir David R. Hawkins was a great spiritual master.

By being honest with myself, I was using Self-Inquiry meditation. This led to my transformation. I took up meditation after my transformation. I was naturally inclined to use sports to relax. I combined sports with being honest with myself. I still use sports like hiking and biking to gain greater Presence. I also practice a combination of two kinds of Breath Prayer to gain greater Presence. I use Benson Technique and Centering Prayer. The Dr. Herbert Benson Technique is a generic type of meditation. Centering Prayer was explained to the world by the Benedictine monk, the late Thomas Keating. Centering Prayer is a type of meditation used by the early Christians that can lead to initial Awakening, Self-Realization and Enlightenment. Keating called achieving permanent higher states of consciousness the gift of Contemplation. Keating’s associate Cynthia Bourgeault carries the torch for him today.

Throughout history people have had unreal and fantasy like ideas about the lives of many holy people. History is not always communicated correctly. Honestly communicated language is an assimilation and accommodation of inner knowing. Dishonestly communicated language is a perversion of inner knowing. Honest mistakes in the perception and interpretation of language come from levels of consciousness or awareness. We need to pierce the veils of illusion and sense the truth.

Awakening is becoming conscious of ourselves among others.

To aid in understanding what I am writing about see The Map Of Consciousness in POWER VS. FORCE, 68-69. This is an ingenious interpretation of spiritual development. Dr. Hawkins love for mankind permeates The Map. There are ascending degrees of awareness within the range of every state or level of consciousness. The degrees within the range of every state or level of consciousness have lessons to learn and the lessons learned need to be integrated into the character. Transformation occurs after the permanent integration of a lesson within the range of a state or level of consciousness. The lessons deal with nonattachment and further ego death. Every state needs to be nurtured. Saints or holy people or advanced good people have gone through and go through severe tests of different kinds as they ascend up the levels of consciousness and they transform due to the lessons learned. The lessons learned ready these good people to help others.

An after effect of the psycho/spiritual/physical alchemy that I went through was gaining the ability to deeply and broadly understand the words that directly came out of the mouths of Jesus and the saints and sages of all traditions. Jesus and the saints and sages of all traditions were and are trying to get us to realize ourselves and the selves of everyone else. They have tried to get us to realize ourselves through the limited vehicle of language and the use of other forms of persuasion.

We have to forgive ourselves before we can forgive others.

When we move up in consciousness we forgive our self. We realize that we could not help what we did because we were not conscious of our self among others. We felt separate from everyone. This is realizing the self. We realize that others are going through this also. They cannot help what they do because of their levels of consciousness. We all have the same model of inner self. We are then able to forgive others because we realize that they cannot help what they do either.We do not feel separate from others anymore. This raises the love we have for our self and we are able to send greater love to others. In the words of Jesus, “forgive us our trespasses(our debts) as we forgive those(our debtors) who trespassed against us.”

This was a spontaneous mystical experience of great permanent transformation. Through subsequent study, I realized that I had taken the right steps by accident to get aligned with God or Spirit. I had minor epiphanies along the way. I overcame my past. What I realized is far beyond an initial awakening where we realize about our body and the energy of our body and the energy of other bodies and the unconscious parts of our minds. Certain types of spiritual bondage need to be gotten rid of so to speak. This is what has been called enlightenment. Some people who have been called saints were not enlightened. Enlightenment is an extremely rare condition. A person who has achieved enlightenment is more aware than the average person(700 on The Map). The veils of illusion have been pulled away and the enlightened person recognizes universal mind or universal self or universal soul in others, so to speak. The collective unconscious becomes conscious. The enlightened person sees how the person being read or screened is under the spell of darkness or is controlled by the negativity of the ego. This is where the person needs to improve. Once the lowest level of enlightenment has been achieved(700 on The Map), as mentioned above, the degrees ascend upward having lessons to be learned and integrated into the character. You have the ability to grow at any level. The highest known levels or states through out history are the levels of Jesus and Buddha.

Wow! Holy mystical Experience! After doing research, I realized that the heads that I saw were spiritual masters and I was never exposed to the paintings before. The heads of the spiritual masters signified to me that everyone is the same as you and I inside ourselves. Again, we are just in different bodies under different conditions. The genders and all races are the same inside themselves. We are all one. The mystics of all traditions have tried to get this really simple understanding across. I did more research and I realized that God or Spirit will talk to you in a in a language and a way that you will understand. I experienced the external locution of hearing Dr. Gay’s voice saying, “Words are traps” and I intuitively sensed the rest. I highly respected Dr. Gay and learned much from him. Through the accidental preparation before my transformation and after my transformation or my full Self-Realization, I gained much information and many insights about mankind. I intend in the future to describe and explain my true life experiences and hands on gained knowledge and perceptions that come from the experience of achieving my transformation.

Young children will love to hear about the subject of awakening.

Most of us can achieve what I achieved. You just have to do the work. I can tell you how. The work for me was fun. I did not realize I was doing the work at the time. What happened to me or the state that I gained is what all religions and spiritual traditions have forever been trying to get across. Among other knowledge and abilities, I achieved the ability to see through egos or read hearts i.e., cardionosis. You can recognize where you have been. Remember the same self is in different bodies. I do not consider the ability to read hearts what is called in the Indian culture a Siddhi. I do not consider the ability to read hearts a paranormal ability. A person who has achieved ground floor enlightenment can read hearts because they have awakened to a high degree of awareness.

In the future we can nurture children along the awakened path.

This enlightening mystical experience that transformed me into a mystic happened long before the internet in the 1980’s. I am a natural contemplative, so after having this experience happen to me it felt natural for me to forgo a normal life and continually experiment, study and contemplate what had happened to me. After all, if you can read others hearts you should retreat for a while. I retreated and studied for years. The way the world is evolving, it is time for me to step up and give what I have to mankind. I have spent countless hours of study on the subjects of Awakening, Self-Realization and Enlightenment.

I had what is called a massive spontaneous kundalini arousal. I was not living in a monastery where an experience like I had could possibly be understood and worked with, I lived in Wisconsin. I learned on my own. I am describing this as simply as I can. There are many different ways to describe the state. Description differs much of the time because of the limits of language to describe enlightenment. It can always be told another way. The describer vacillates between the logical and the intuitive. People who are logic bound are not able to ascend to the higher mind or deeper and broader intuition to sense the greater part of the attempt at description. The subject then is ineffible.

The future will see communication outlets and educators explaining about “games that people play.” This is a core issue for our advancement. Communication outlets and educators will prepare themselves through the study of Psychology, especially Abnormal Psychology. This will be an evolutionary leap in consciousness. Collective Intuition will then become clearer. There will be greater Collective Mindfulness. People will not participate in “the games” because they will recognize them. Game players will have to raise their vibrations to a higher resonance of spirituality in order to get along. Higher consciousness will spread. No Games. There will be greater self-love and/or self-esteem seen in individuals because people will not be getting hurt as much and this will serve the interconnection of us all. We will pull each other up. Due to understanding, people will not be as fearful and will not have the urge to control and manipulate so much. People will not feel separate from each other because there will be a collective understanding about our energetic connection. People will become more relaxed and let the flow of nature take its course. Disease will be less and this includes addictions. This lies in our education and our ability to love. Global Heart Resonance will rise. Imagine how this will be!

People must learn to ascend to the higher mind in order to grow spiritually. To do this, we need to become more aware of our true motivations and this includes understanding when we have cross motivations. Clever use of words and other means of persuasion can conceal sinister motivations. The more we understand ourselves, the more we understand everyone else. Remember that we all have the same model of inner self. Our motivations whether good or bad or somewhere in between are linked to the communication that we use. Are we just thinking about ourselves when we send out our communication or are we thinking about the welfare of everyone? Love considers the welfare of everyone. People need to grow past 499 and past 500 in the Hawkins MAP OF CONSCIOUSNESS. Over 500 is where fuller and clearer intuition and the higher mind resides. Our heart opens here to understand everyone.

“And the minds true liberation” This is a line from the song – Aquarius/Let the Sunshine In – sung by the Fifth Dimension. Listen on my Facebook page.

We need to be nonattached to greatly advance spiritually. I was self-supporting when I transformed by accident. Not having to worry about money gave me the freedom to go all the way up on Maslow’s Hierarchy of Needs all the way to Self-Actualization. My full self-Actualization and Enlightenment came from facing the world through the adventure and art of Stand-Up Comedy. I also had the orientation of doing stand-up for the joy of the art and for character development. I was honest with myself. I did not firstly have an attachment for wealth and the need to support myself and others. Jesus had backers who gave Jesus feelings of security and Buddha came from a wealthy family that Buddha realized he could fall back on – think about it.

We all can suffer from comparing our self to others. That is not what it is all about. For example, I am not Dr. David R. Hawkins, but I would like to keep advancing through my life as Dr. Hawkins did. Awakening, Self-Realization and Enlightenment are about taking time out for nurturing our self and realizing our unique beautiful self no matter what our conditions.

Some people may accuse me of having a spiritual ego. Look, there is no other way to describe the state of enlightenment. I claim the lowest level. The only other ways besides personal experience to attempt to describe enlightenment are to do a traditional report followed with an interpretation or to do a scholarly work of some kind that contains a literature review where the researcher is reporting and then writing an interpretation. Remember that language is limited and WORDS ARE TRAPS.

All endeavour is to merge individual love with the ocean of love that is God. Sai Baba

We all share the consciousness of God. The same Self resides in our different bodies. The Self-Realization of this fact is understood in greater and lesser degrees in all of us. Sai Baba is speaking with Cosmic awareness that stems from his access of the seventh chakra. The seventh chakra has been referred to as the Universal Mind.


It is obvious that we have to lay out fundamentals before we can get a grasp of the whole. Over the years as fundamentals are restated – restated and paraphrased we will notice humanity getting closer to the state of unconditional love intended in the Lord’s Prayer. We are the same inside. We are the same inside as Jesus, Buddha, and Krishna. We each have different “degrees” of understanding for this fact. When Jesus was on the cross and said, “forgive them for they do not know what they are doing”, Jesus meant that humanity was not evolved enough to understand. Unconditional love is unconditional forgiveness. When we realize that our attacker is not evolved enough to realize what he is doing we are able to forgive him. We realize that the attacker has the same type of internal Self as we do. We are inter-connected in cause and effect. The attacker has not evolved in empathy which understands this Same-Self connected fact. This is a seventh chakra realization. It is rare to gain access to the seventh chakra. We are part of the Absolute or God. We have Divine unity with all beings and the universe. It is very easy to realize consciousness in animals and all beings. It has to be presented properly. As we restate – restate, and paraphrase fundamentals we will collectively reach the seventh chakra in the future. The collective reaching of the seventh chakra will be collective Cosmic Consciousness.


Left-brained intellectual reasoning about people being non-separate from each other is left-brained intellectual reasoning about people being non-separate from each other. When, what I have termed, Super Intuition develops, we actually see and know that we are not consciously and physically separate from each other. First, the left and right sides of our brain become united rendering whole-brain perception. Second, through developmental practices, the right side of our brain becomes further developed into Super Intuition. Super Intuition sees the consciousness of others. Super Intuition can transfer Super Intuition.

Truth, Legend And Speculation About The Lost Years Of Jesus

The quotes and my commentary stem from the book, THE JESUS MYSTERY Of Lost Years And Unknown Travels, by Janet Bock. This article serves as a forerunner for my upcoming book.

The back cover of The Jesus Mystery advertises the book:

The Earth Trembled And The Heavens Wept At The Great Crime Just Committed In The Land Of Israel. For There Was Tortured And Murdered The Great, Just Jesus In Whom Dwelt The Soul Of The Universe. – Buddhist Manuscript, 1st Cent. A.D. Discovered in Tibet.

Jesus studies in India, Persia and Egypt covered much greater periods… Edgar Cayce

Being a perfect yogi Lord Jesus could perform many miracles. – Swami Sivananda Divine Life Society

God made Jesus Christ an Oriental in order to bring East and West together. Paramahansa Yogananda

Jesus Said That The Bread Taken At The Last Supper Was His Flesh, And The Wine Was His Blood. He Meant That All Beings Alive With Flesh And Blood Are To Be Treated As He Himself And No Distinction Should Be Made Between Friend Or Foe, We Or They. Every Body Is His Body, Sustained By The Bread: Every Drop Of Blood Flowing In The Veins Of Every Living Being Is His, Animated By The Activity That The Wine Imparted To It. That Is To Say, Every Man and Woman Is Divine And Has To Be Revered As Such.” – Bhagavan Sri Sathya Sai Baba

We knew that Abhedananda had been a disciple of the famous saint Ramakrishna who was renowned in the 19th Century for attaining union with God through the spiritual practices of all major religions… (20)

Swami Abhedananda was fascinated by Jesus as a spiritual personage so after reading Notovitch’s book his curiosity was aroused and he decided to make the journey to Himis to see for himself. His visit takes an added importance because he was skeptical of Notovitch’s claim and his objective in making the long, arduous trek was to expose Notovitch. Also, he spoke the language and could communicate more easily and directly than the Russian. When he found that the ancient writings did exist he wrote about them in his Bengali book of travels entitled “Kasmiri O Tibetti.” (20-21)

Swami Prajnananda (a disciple of Swami Abhedananda): Yes. I am very interested in Christ. My guru used to say that He, Christ, was an Indian yogi. He wrote a book called “Was Christ a Yogi.” In that book he told that Christ was more than a yogi, that He practiced yoga and that He realized God as not only Christian, but Hindu, Jain, Buddhist and the God of all faiths. (22-23)

I became permanently aware of the Universal Consciousness that we share when I underwent my phantasmagoric vision seeing within a cloud different spiritual masters that was coupled with me hearing a koan from Zen, WORDS ARE TRAPS. This, of course, took me years of study and meditation to figure out. The knowledge and awareness that I am graced with expands on a daily basis. Words are approximations of reality. So I realized that I became aware of what has been called the Universal Mind or Universal Soul. I am still realizing what this is all about. Because I became aware of the universalness of us all I realized that the religions and traditions of the world have a universal thread of truth running through them. I have mentioned the book THE MYSTIC HEART Discovering A Universal Spirituality In The World’s Religions, by Wayne Teasdale many times on the internet. When I first read THE MYSTIC HEART I realized that this was our Universal Consciousness that became clear to me. My upcoming book will elaborate about our Universal Self and will be beneficial for humanity.

THE JESUS MYSTERY Of Lost Years and Unknown Travels, Janet Bock, 1980, Aura Books.

THE MYSTIC HEART Discovering A Universal Spirituality In The World’s Religions, Wayne Teasdale, 1999, New World library.


Universal Mind and Universal Soul refer to the same thing, that is, a Universal Mind/Soul inside, outside and through us that is individual and collective and is called the mind of God. The Image of God or True Self inside us will blossom if we truly activate the individual conscience and this expands our collective conscience. Ground floor integrity has to be achieved for a person to possess an activated conscience.


You can see and know God. I do. I have spent the last thirty-eight years knowing God directly in myself and in seeing and knowing God in the consciousness of all individuals and this includes animals and insects. Everything is God. The more we evolve in consciousness the more we love. God is our evolving consciousness. The focal point of this short paper is for a brief and simple telling of what I see and know as God as Consciousness.

When I realized the meaning of the koan from Zen, WORDS ARE TRAPS, which came to me in an explosive flash of released kundalini energy, I realized God as our Universal Mind or Soul. I see the state of the ego of a person. Seeing the state of the ego of a person has been called cardionosis which is the ability to read hearts. This is deep and sensitive knowing. The permanent state that I have been blessed with has been called Cosmic Consciousness. Yoga calls my state nirivikalpa samadhi. Saints of different traditions have acquired this spiritual state and not all proclaimed saints have had this state. We share this Universal Mind/Soul inside each of us. We share Mind/Soul sameness. Most people have the potential to have the Universal Mind brought into conscious awareness. Our Universal Mind/Soul, God as Consciousness, is obstructed in us by the ego (self-importance) part of our individual personalities. There is a division inside almost all of us between the Universal Mind of God and the ego. The goal of religions and nature spirituality has always been for God and ego to merge and become one inside us. Our motives become pure and God or the Great Spirit then works through our individual personalities. Because God merged with the ego inside me, the merger then revealed that God became unobstructed or unveiled in me. I entered the Universal Mind or merged with our God Consciousness. The reality of our shared Universal Mind/Soul or God Consciousness became clear in me. This natural clear state gives me the ongoing ability to see and know the obstructions that block Universal Consciousness in people. I realized that Jesus as teacher and healer was transmitting reception to us for attaining clear Universal Consciousness (enlightenment) and healing with it. A person in my state still has an ego. A person who does not have an ego leaves the planet. The ego in my personality was transformed or transfigured into what has been called a ripe ego. A ripe ego is a teaching ego.

Up until now I have never attempted to make any money because of my Cosmic Consciousness. I have decided to join the world spirituality movement and help humanity become more conscious, that is, healthy, and I need a little more money than I have now to pay expenses. The more conscious you become the more you understand what love is all about. Your faith in everything becomes stronger because you see and know God as our Universal Consciousness. You have found out that you do not die. You have found out that you go back to the mind of God. You have become liberated. This is what your life is all about.

I have spent the last thirty-eight years studying to understand what happened to me after I received a vision that made me understand the unity of humanity along with hearing the voice of God. I was not around anyone who understood my condition. I devoted my whole life struggling and studying for years to find out what had happened to me. Purity of motive is what is important. My vision refines and enlightens me further on a daily basis and so does my cohort. Thus far, I have given information away free that emanates from my evolving Cosmic Consciousness. I want people to achieve Self-Realization and not just struggle through life with a God or Nature obstructed consciousness. I see how my efforts have permeated world-wide. I see how my generosity has given confidence to others to go forward with inspiration in their work for waking others up. My motives have been successful so far.

So, I see the obstructions in others that block pure Universal Consciousness or God in others. In catholic school they taught us that God is love. This means that God is Consciousness. The more conscious we become of each other, the more we realize that we need to be sensitive to each other because we are all on a collective path where we are removing obstructions to divine consciousness. When we evolve individually we evolve collectively. We learn to be sensitive to each other because we come to see and know how our actions affect everyone. We awaken to feeling how our actions affect each other. Our emotions become balanced as our conscience activates us to emotional awareness. While we step out of our egocentric pathology we realize that others are just like us inside, that is, we share Universal Consciousness. We heal and remove our obstructions to the true love consciousness of God. The healing and removing of obstructions opens us up to the full potential of our Spirit. A person comes to know God as one’s own unobstructed consciousness by seeing God as Consciousness. On the path to eventually seeing God as Consciousness a person removes obstructions that keep God hidden in the unconscious part of the mind. God is actually formless as consciousness. This takes work but it gets to be fun when you understand it in a fun way or through a fun context. Removing the obstructions is making the unconscious part of the mind conscious. I know God by knowing my consciousness. You know God by knowing your consciousness. My consciousness is your consciousness. Your consciousness is my consciousness. We all share the same consciousness. This same consciousness is obstructed more in some people than in others. It is that simple. Removing obstructions of the ego is the Universal path to seeing and knowing God. We love everyone. Everyone is our friend. You can see and know God.


A mature whole brain thinker deciphers everything in a lectio divina fashion.. The majority of persons only use left brain (reasoning) thinking and disregard or many times do not trust the right brain which is intuition and perceives in wholes. An enlightened person becomes a whole-brain perceiver. Good heart-felt and mind-created rhetoric is intended to raise consciousness. God is love as consciousness. When the consciousness is raised blocks to love or blind spots to love are cleared. So what can be taken one way by a mainly left brained reasoning person can be taken just the opposite by a whole-brain thinker. Contemplation is intended to make us whole-brain perceivers. A mainly left brained reasoner can be stuck for a while in discerning a message in not the way in which it was intended by the developer. As examples, hyperbole and irony can at first throw a message discerner off into bafflement even taking them in the complete opposite direction turning a love intended message into a hate intended message. If in doubt – inquire. If true heart-felt hyperbole and irony are not perceived as intended right away they are intended to convey the message later to the receiver. Many times a message’s true meaning will instantly fall into the receivers consciousness when the person is relaxed and turn a left brained interpretation of hate into the intention which was love when the whole-brain is active, but, like I mentioned above, the intuition needs to be trusted. Hyperbole and irony are artistically employed by writers in general and oppressed people in the communication arts daily. Editors are concerned about hyperbole and irony as they understand that people can take the messages literally.