A koan is a paradoxical anecdote or riddle used in Zen Buddhism to demonstrate the inadequacy of logical reasoning and to provoke enlightenment.
I took a hit off the joint (entheogen) and instantly a vision of a cloud appeared before me. This was In 1983. OH MY GOD! Pictured within this cloud were the heads of what I determined later to be spiritual masters. There was an Islamic man wearing a turban, a side view of a man, probably Hindu, who resembled Rabindranath Tagore, a side view of a man, probably Hebrew, who reminded me of Yassar Arafat, a Mongolian or Tibetan male, an African male, an Oriental male, a Native American chief with a full headdress, and a Carmelite nun. I was undergoing a mystical experience of profound expansiveness. I gazed at the cloud – huh? WOW! I sprung out of my chair and the cloud disappeared. I noticed an effulgent golden flaming light radiating off my body, especially my arms. It was a color more brilliantly golden and luminous than I had ever seen before. It was a firelight. AWESOME! Vibrating out of the ether came an external locution of my Psychology of Consciousness professor Dr. Som Gay voicing the Zen koan he gave us in class Words Are Traps. I am intuitively realizing that everyone is bombarded by language and this confuses our innocence while holding us back from our natural state or true Self. Most of us do not realize this occurrence. I became open to the fact that we are all part of the exact Soul or Spirit that is just in different bodies under different conditions. Eureka everybody is like this, I am entering the universal consciousness of us all, I thought to myself. Goosebumps covered my entire body and all the hairs of my body stood on end as I realized this primal truth. I found God or Holy Spirit or Great Universal Spirit or Cosmic Spirit inside myself and everybody else at the same time. This has been called Perfect Knowledge (vijnana) in the East where a yogi sees and knows “God” in all people. I achieved superconsciousness or Samadhi and this was a transfiguring experience. Members of religions and people from all cultures have realized themselves with transfiguration experiences throughout history. Jesus is a model of this for us. Self-Realization or Enlightenment has always been the ultimate goal of all religions and traditions. I broke through the cultural conditioning or worldly conditioning that obstructs our Spirit and contributes to our suffering A reason that we suffer is that we think we are separate from each other. We feel we are in an interpersonal fog. The clarity that comes with Self-Realization lets us psychologically and emotionally see and feel each other. We truly get to know each other. The knowledge became clear to me that we all have the same model of the inner Self. You can call it what you want Words Are Traps. Our intuition is beyond words (intellect) and tells us the truth by knowing when we are centered. A vision, bathed in golden light, a locution, goosebumps, hair standing on end, this is ecstasy, this is bliss consciousness. This was spontaneous kundalini arousal – research kundalini. Kundalini is the burning bush of Moses and the light that knocked Paul off his horse. Paul saw the light. Paul and Moses and many saints around the world from all traditions became Enlightened. Most people develop slowly. This is my story. It depends on how you are involved with life. I achieved unity with Spirit. This state is called union in the study of Mystical Theology. The developmental stages that a person or spiritual aspirant can go through are explained in Mystical Theology as Purging, Illumination, and Union. The stages are really your ongoing development or what is going on with you as you advance in consciousness – remember Words Are Traps. Your ego or personality is refined and merges in union with the spark of Divinity in you and you know internal and external Oneness. You see and know the psychological reality of our interpersonal Oneness and/also know that you are One with everything. You are washed clean of your past. For understanding, see the book POWER VS. FORCE, by Dr. David R. Hawkins, 93-94. I reached a permanently higher level of peace while becoming much more settled. One undergoes a great feeling of permanent relief when one sees and knows that we all have the same Self in our different bodies. We then understand what is going on with each other. This same Self that we share is considered by many to be “God.” This same Self that is Us is covered up by our egos or personalities until we internally discover and uncover this same Self and merge with it. You realize beyond intellect, or beyond the “understanding” of logic and reason, that you are ONE with everyone and everything. This realization of Oneness guides you. You become in touch with reality. I call this Super Intuition but it is commonly referred to in spiritual circles as superconsciousness. This is really awakened consciousness. We wake up. This is the peace they talk about that “passes all understanding.” This is the peace of Jesus, Krishna, Buddha, and most of the saints of all traditions. It is the intention of our models that we achieve peace. The obstructions or blocks that have concealed our interpersonal Oneness are removed. We realize that our particular personalities are individual expressions of our internal sameness, that is, our Oneness. In this state, the common feeling for the fear of death is lost and the understanding of eternity is realized.
Compare my major vision to the major visions of Black Elk and Arjuna.
Holy Mystical Experience! After doing research, I realized that the heads that I saw were spiritual masters and I was never exposed to anything like that before but I later found similar paintings and pictures. Moreover, the heads of the spiritual masters signified to me that everyone is the same as you and me inside ourselves and we are just in different bodies under different conditions. The genders and all races are the same inside themselves. We are all ONE. The mystics of all traditions have tried to get this simple understanding across. I did more research and I found out that God or Spirit will talk to you in a language and a way that you will understand. This has happened to many people and it is found in scripture. I experienced the external locution of hearing Dr. Gay’s voice saying, “Words are Traps” and I intuitively realized the rest. I highly respected Dr. Gay and learned much from him. Through the accidental preparation before my transformation and after my transformation or my full Self-Realization, I gained much information and many insights about mankind. My base of knowledge expands or deepens and widens on a daily basis. I intend in the future to describe and explain my true life experiences and hands-on gained knowledge and perceptions that come from the experience of achieving myself which is really our Self. Information that I will be presenting in my upcoming book is especially important for parents. Children guided by parents, caregivers, and teachers who are achieving Self-Realization themselves will never be lonely. Early focus on character development that sets the foundation for understanding the primal reality of interpersonal truth grows smarter relationship-aware children. These are spirit-guided children who are nurtured by parents, teachers, and caregivers who are digesting or have fully digested the literal awareness for the reality of our awakened spirit. These children do not feel separate or alienated. Knowing, seeing, and feeling that we are essentially the same inside ourselves and One with everything is the next step in our evolution.