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A koan is a paradoxical anecdote or riddle used in Zen Buddhism to demonstrate the inadequacy of logical reasoning and to provoke enlightenment.

I took a hit off the joint (entheogen) and instantly a vision of a cloud appeared before me. This was In 1983. OH MY GOD! Pictured within this cloud were the heads of what I determined later to be spiritual masters. There was an Islamic man wearing a turban, a side view of a man, probably Hindu, who resembled Rabindranath Tagore, a side view of a man, probably Hebrew, who reminded me of Yassar Arafat, a Mongolian or Tibetan male, an African male, an Oriental male, a Native American chief with a full headdress, and a Carmelite nun. I was undergoing a mystical experience of profound expansiveness. I gazed at the cloud – huh? WOW! I sprung out of my chair and the cloud disappeared. I noticed an effulgent golden flaming light radiating off my body, especially my arms. It was a color more brilliantly golden and luminous than I had ever seen before. It was a firelight. AWESOME! Vibrating out of the ether came an external locution of my Psychology of Consciousness professor Dr. Som Gay voicing the Zen koan he gave us in class Words Are Traps. I am intuitively realizing that everyone is bombarded by language and this confuses our innocence while holding us back from our natural state or true Self. Most of us do not realize this occurrence. I became open to the fact that we are all part of the exact Soul or Spirit that is just in different bodies under different conditions. Eureka everybody is like this, I am entering the universal consciousness of us all, I thought to myself. Goosebumps covered my entire body and all the hairs of my body stood on end as I realized this primal truth. I found God or Holy Spirit or Great Universal Spirit or Cosmic Spirit inside myself and everybody else at the same time. This has been called Perfect Knowledge (vijnana) in the East where a yogi sees and knows “God” in all people. I achieved superconsciousness or Samadhi and this was a transfiguring experience. Members of religions and people from all cultures have realized themselves with transfiguration experiences throughout history. Jesus is a model of this for us. Self-Realization or Enlightenment has always been the ultimate goal of all religions and traditions. I broke through the cultural conditioning or worldly conditioning that obstructs our Spirit and contributes to our suffering A reason that we suffer is that we think we are separate from each other. We feel we are in an interpersonal fog. The clarity that comes with Self-Realization lets us psychologically and emotionally see and feel each other. We truly get to know each other. The knowledge became clear to me that we all have the same model of the inner Self. You can call it what you want Words Are Traps. Our intuition is beyond words (intellect) and tells us the truth by knowing when we are centered. A vision, bathed in golden light, a locution, goosebumps, hair standing on end, this is ecstasy, this is bliss consciousness. This was spontaneous kundalini arousal – research kundalini. Kundalini is the burning bush of Moses and the light that knocked Paul off his horse. Paul saw the light. Paul and Moses and many saints around the world from all traditions became Enlightened. Most people develop slowly. This is my story. It depends on how you are involved with life. I achieved unity with Spirit. This state is called union in the study of Mystical Theology. The developmental stages that a person or spiritual aspirant can go through are explained in Mystical Theology as Purging, Illumination, and Union. The stages are really your ongoing development or what is going on with you as you advance in consciousness – remember Words Are Traps. Your ego or personality is refined and merges in union with the spark of Divinity in you and you know internal and external Oneness. You see and know the psychological reality of our interpersonal Oneness and/also know that you are One with everything. You are washed clean of your past. For understanding, see the book POWER VS. FORCE, by Dr. David R. Hawkins, 93-94. I reached a permanently higher level of peace while becoming much more settled. One undergoes a great feeling of permanent relief when one sees and knows that we all have the same Self in our different bodies. We then understand what is going on with each other. This same Self that we share is considered by many to be “God.” This same Self that is Us is covered up by our egos or personalities until we internally discover and uncover this same Self and merge with it. You realize beyond intellect, or beyond the “understanding” of logic and reason, that you are ONE with everyone and everything. This realization of Oneness guides you. You become in touch with reality. I call this Super Intuition but it is commonly referred to in spiritual circles as superconsciousness. This is really awakened consciousness. We wake up. This is the peace they talk about that “passes all understanding.” This is the peace of Jesus, Krishna, Buddha, and most of the saints of all traditions. It is the intention of our models that we achieve peace. The obstructions or blocks that have concealed our interpersonal Oneness are removed. We realize that our particular personalities are individual expressions of our internal sameness, that is, our Oneness. In this state, the common feeling for the fear of death is lost and the understanding of eternity is realized.

Compare my major vision to the major visions of Black Elk and Arjuna.

Holy Mystical Experience! After doing research, I realized that the heads that I saw were spiritual masters and I was never exposed to anything like that before but I later found similar paintings and pictures. Moreover, the heads of the spiritual masters signified to me that everyone is the same as you and me inside ourselves and we are just in different bodies under different conditions. The genders and all races are the same inside themselves. We are all ONE. The mystics of all traditions have tried to get this simple understanding across. I did more research and I found out that God or Spirit will talk to you in a language and a way that you will understand. This has happened to many people and it is found in scripture. I experienced the external locution of hearing Dr. Gay’s voice saying, “Words are Traps” and I intuitively realized the rest. I highly respected Dr. Gay and learned much from him. Through the accidental preparation before my transformation and after my transformation or my full Self-Realization, I gained much information and many insights about mankind. My base of knowledge expands or deepens and widens on a daily basis. I intend in the future to describe and explain my true life experiences and hands-on gained knowledge and perceptions that come from the experience of achieving myself which is really our Self. Information that I will be presenting in my upcoming book is especially important for parents. Children guided by parents, caregivers, and teachers who are achieving Self-Realization themselves will never be lonely. Early focus on character development that sets the foundation for understanding the primal reality of interpersonal truth grows smarter relationship-aware children. These are spirit-guided children who are nurtured by parents, teachers, and caregivers who are digesting or have fully digested the literal awareness for the reality of our awakened spirit. These children do not feel separate or alienated. Knowing, seeing, and feeling that we are essentially the same inside ourselves and One with everything is the next step in our evolution.

My Story

I was sitting up in my crib sipping beer from the teaspoon. I couldn’t walk yet. My dad was giving me the beer. Dad was alone with me and was drinking beer and decided to give me some. My dad confessed this to me in the last few years of his life. I said, “Gee dad it sounds like you were hard up for drinking buddies!” Our female beagle dog, Chips, was also given beer and would stagger around the dead-end street that we lived on.

This is an excerpt from my upcoming book.

Awakening to our Collective Self literally tunes you into the heartbeat of your sisters and brothers.

This is because you actually see and know what is going on with others. You become an insider of humanity. Self-Realization tunes you into the heartbeat of the earth and the entire cosmos. The totality of Self-Realization is a loving realization of Creation. This has been called Cosmic Consciousness. As you awaken to our Universal Self which is the formless conscious aspect of our Universal Spirit you will experience renewed youthfulness while you glorify others with your life.

This is an excerpt from my upcoming book.


Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus. NIV Philippians 4:6-7

The first time that I really talked to God as I understood God I asked God for strength. This was a heartfelt prayer of petition. This was a deep surrender to God, the Universe, or whatever people want to call Creation. I did not realize at the time that my surrender was so honest, sincere, pleading, and deep that it was centering me in myself. I reached the cornerstone or foundation of myself. I was confirmed. I came to realize this fact. When I reached the center of myself I reached the center of all selves. During my period of confirmation, I underwent a vision that graced me with the ability to see into and through the egos of others. I see the struggles of others. The sight of our collective psychology was given to me. So as I was confirmed in myself I was simultaneously confirmed in humanity. My interpersonal awareness became clarified. My interpersonal awareness became intensified. The illusion of me being separate from others was gone. I came home. I came back to the presence of my birth. I became much more contented and peaceful in myself and with others. I realized that we all are the same inside. A person undergoes a great relief when you see what is going on with everyone.

God Answered My Prayer

This was the strength I petitioned God to give me. The state of awareness I am communicating about is the state that Paul was communicating about in Philippians. This state completes or serves as a missing piece of the pie for achieving the overall peace of God which transcends all understanding. Paul struggles with the limits of language to get us to realize this intuition. We transcend or pass reasoning and logic of the intellect (limits of language) in the struggle of grasping the intuitive realization that Paul is nudging us toward, that is, the Spirit of Christ or Krishna or Great Spirit or Allah of us all and it is our psychology beyond ego. We are individuals (souls) at different levels of this awareness. We battle the flesh to get to the center of us. It is said that the Supreme Soul is the soul of our souls.

I was on a vision quest and did not realize it. I am affiliated with Native American culture. A fact of life for Native Americans is that when a person receives a vision the vision is to be shared for the good of the tribe. This is what I struggle with to get our tribe of humanity to realize. It took me many years to fully understand what happened to me. This is what I am called to express. For over twenty years I have been answering my call. It is said that an avatar can read thoughts. Well, I am far from an avatar but I do realize that an avatar certainly would at the very least see the psychology of humanity as I do. I constantly fight to better myself. I learn from the insights of others. Appropriate for Easter, what I am trying to get across is the Resurrection of the Christ within you.

Black Elks Prayer

Black Elk’s Visions Are Being Understood

The first peace which is the most important is that which comes within the souls of people when they realize their relationship, their oneness, with the universe and all its powers, and when they realize that at the center of the universe dwells Wakan-Tanka (The Great Spirit), and this center is really everywhere, it is within each of us. This is the real peace, and the others are but reflections of this.

The second peace is that which is made between two individuals. The third is that which is made between two nations.

But above all, you should understand that there can never be peace between nations until there is known that true peace, which as I have often said, is within the souls of men. Black Elk

“When I’m not praying I’m really a disgusting person” – quote by Mike in a prayer circle

The True Self Emerges

Believe it or not, this is the type of Self-Awareness that leads to what Thomas Keating, an architect of contemporary Centering Prayer, called the Gift of Contemplation. The Gift of Contemplation Centers in the Divine. We realize how Divine communication works when we are in silence and we are able to take this understanding with us in everyday life.

A few years ago I spent a weekend at a Christian compound in the Wisconsin north woods where surrenderers of all ages were absorbing what was described as a Green Beret type of advanced spiritual training. An effective prayer circle was in use. Prayer Circles are also used in other spiritual retreats and organizations like A.A. An alchemy dissolves the false-self part of the ego. The individuals (souls) in the group, who are at different levels of awakening to the Divine inside and outside of themselves, merge in a union as one soul or spirit that tells the truth and is as honest with itself as it can be. The Universal Mind or Consciousness or Self emerges. This is Group Contemplation or Meditation however you define it. Remember WORDS ARE TRAPS.

Participants who are guided this way by highly Self-Realized instructors who also participate leave the Circle with an understanding of what a truthful inner life is all about. Mike, in the quote above, was reflecting on his brain chatter. Mike was working on purifying his mind-heart connection as we all are. I have known zealous spiritual seekers who have closed themselves off in silence shut-up in small closets to listen to Divine messages that come after the ego is surrendered. Talk Fasts where a person does not speak for a long period of time are also effective for tuning a person into their brain chatter and releasing or raising the Divine inside. A person can communicate with notes while in a Talk Fast. Whatever methods we use to realize our individual and collective human nature the goal is to be ever mindful of the True Self behind the small or false part of our egos or personalities. With perseverence, the True Self will eventually subsume or alchemize the small/false-self part of the ego or personality and become the ego or personality. The Gift of Contemplation is what Centers us in ourselves. The Gift of Contemplation is the same as Self-Realization.

The Idealized Image of a person or group is the blockade that suppresses the full Resurrection of The Christ Within Us.

It is my hope that we finally truly realize (Self-Realization or Enlightenment) that what is referred to in the field of Psychology as the Idealized Image is the false self. The Idealized Image of you or of the group you identify with has to be known about, focused on, and cleared away in order for us to realize our shared True Self or what is called by Christianity the Christ within us or the Image and Likeness of God. Hinduism refers to the shared True Self as Atman or the Universal Self. The genie needs to be let out of the lamp. This is the part of the ego that holds conditioning, falsehoods, and lies we tell. Psychology means the study of the soul (psyche). Two books helped me clear away my Idealized Image or false self and made me be real (Self-Realization) and see and know “what is.” Seeing and knowing “what is” possesses the psychological ability to detect the Idealized Image of persons or groups. The abilities to see and know “what is” are part of the condition of Cardionosis or reading hearts. Remember, the same Self (psyche) is in our different bodies. These two timeless and classic books are by Karen Horney, M.D. Karen Horney was a neo-Freudian psychologist known for her theory of neurotic needs, her research on feminine psychology, and her critiques of Freud’s emphasis on the concept of penis envy. The two books are The Neurotic Personality Of Our Time, 1937, and OUR INNER CONFLICTS A Constructive Theory of Neurosis, 1945,.

Happy Easter!


In the video below Sadhguru who founded Isha Foundation mentions the path of Devotion as a means to realizing God. Isha means “the formless divine”. Yoga calls the path of Devotion Bhakti and this path compares to the virtue of Charity in Christianity.

The goal of all religions, traditions, or humanity is and always has been the realization of the Self. The same Self or Spirit of all that is the same in all of us. We sense our same Spirit when we are in groups. What we sense in groups is Universal Consciousness. The more we submit or surrender to this same True Self of all which is the goodness inside us the more we come to realize the Universal Mind or Universal Consciousness that we are and share. We are Spirit. We come to understand the internal division between ego/personality and True Self and we become One inside when these “two” merge or create Union. After Union, there is no division or no duality inside you. This has been called God-Realization or Self-Realization. Paramahansa Yogananda founded Self-Realization Fellowship for this reason as did Sadhguru with Isha. Deepak Chopra is a prophet. All religions and traditions have their methods for realizing the collective Self.

Bhakti yoga and Christian Charity are loving devotional services to God or humanity. Whatever we do we do it for God or the Great Spirit as we understand Spirit. We can understand a “form” of God or the Great Spirit as “formless” or both. Universal Consciousness is formless. We run our lives in a Spirit of Truth with Honesty and Devotion to everyone and everything. It is said we are closest to God when we are doing something we love. I found our Great Spirit from whole loving devotion to stand-up comedy. I wanted to make people laugh. The ongoing activities of Bhakti and Charity slowly transform us into seeing (spiritual eye of intuition) and psychologically knowing each other. We come to know that we are everything.