He came from out of town and put on a false English accent so as to appear mysterious and intriguing. She would send cards and flowers to herself where she worked so others in the office would think she was being pursued by men. He was an extremely thin man who claimed that he was not always that thin. He said that he had contracted malaria serving in the U. S. military in Vietnam. He stated that he used to weigh 215 pounds before the malaria and that he boxed heavyweight. He claimed that he put Muhammed Ali down as an amateur. He was insinuating that he was the uncrowned heavyweight champion of the world. These are examples of lonely people who perceive that they are separate from others. You can be lonely if you are single or married. The false self, small self or ego was running their lives. This fantasy self needs to give way and be reborn to Our Universal Mind that lurks behind the narcissistic ego so to speak. These people, most likely, had no idea about Our Universal Spirit that is the same in all of Us.
Very truly I tell you, unless you are born again you cannot see the kingdom/queendom of God.” John“ 3:3.
An alchemy has to take place inside of Us where your Soul and ego merge and Our Self/self is reformed and reborn. We go back to the nonduality We had as “little children” (little children are connected to everything and do not feel separate) Matt. 18:3, and then “the kingdom/queendom of God is in your midst” Luke 17:21. We are then in touch with our Universal Spirit. Heart-felt Surrender to Honesty within the Self and eventually also outside of the Self with Others is necessary for the alchemy of rebirth to occur. We accept Our Self and Our conditions. Our sense of being Cosmically connected, through Universal Energy, to everyone and everything gets stronger and stronger. We become less lonely after sufficient reformation, because there is no separation in Our Universal Mind/Self/Spirit. As We rebirth, We see Our Universal Self more and more in Others. We slowly recognize Our Energetic Connection to everyone and also everything. We gain the understanding of Our Shared psychological, emotional and physical reality and this makes Us much more calmer because We do not feel alone. We become less restless and are able to stay home more. We are eventually not lonely at all. We finally get it. We recognize Each Other here which is Our embodied Oneness and the Love that We need to elevate in for Each Other as One.
We can become detached and indifferent to to Each Other. Extreme narcissism and other mental and emotional conditions do not care about Others. We are thinking about compassionate understanding and feeling for Each Other here which is Our embodied Oneness and Love that We need to elevate in for Each Other.
As Our rebirth Awakens Us to the reality of Our energetic connection to Each Other within the Cosmos We have a heightened sense of awe, wonder and beauty for everything that We do. We experience the joy of Awakening to Our Universal Spirit. We practice healthy habits and look to the future with Divine Anticipation. We recognize that We are not separate from Each Other. We recognize that We are energetically connected to Each Other within the Cosmos. We are rising in Our Love for everything. We are not lonely.
I was born in Wisconsin to a Roman Catholic family. My mother June was a talented writer and started her own service club. My father Joe was a Right-of-Way agent for Bell telephone. Joe was an avid golfer and overall sports enthusiast. Joe would play sports with me and I became a life-long athlete.
I was known as a rebel and was expelled from the Catholic school I attended at the age of fourteen. I was arrested at nineteen for being a thief and was placed on probation. Around this time, not being happy, I turned inward. I worked at different jobs that did not satisfy my budding inner life. I traveled down south several times reading books trying to find myself. In 1980, at the age of twenty-seven, I enrolled at a local college. I was now in an interesting environment. I was curious about almost everything and I eventually majored in speech and psychology or speaking and thinking.
Many people told me that I was funny. I was able to make them laugh about unusual subjects. In the summers of 1981 and 1982, while still a college student, I traveled to Minneapolis and pursued the art of stand-up comedy. During these summers I would write comedy, run twenty-five miles a week and perform comedy at night. I was also a juggler but did not juggle in my stand-up act. I took up Hatha yoga and studied nutrition. In Minneapolis, I interacted with the local up-and-coming comedians. Minneapolis at that time had a small close-knit comedy culture that produced a good number of comedians and some became quite famous. I was making audiences laugh shortly after I started. During this time I was also performing comedy in other cities. I planned on being a professional comedian.
Catholicism conditioned me to have a clear inner voice. I had to make people laugh and the only way I could see to do it was to be brutally honest with myself. I thought honesty would align me with common reality. The Sisters of St. Agnes, who taught me, always told me to tell the truth. So I was continually examining myself and weeding out delusional thinking. This became my way of life.
One day in 1983, I was alone at my parents house and all of a sudden I had a massive spontaneous kundalini awakening. The awakening of this spiritual energy made me realize my self. I achieved the ability, among others, to see through other peoples egos or read their hearts. I was forever changed. In 1983 there was no internet or otherwise easily accessible information for me to be able to find out what had happened to me. Because of the massive explosion of energy my nervous and digestive system had to rebuild.
Due to what happened to me, I changed my plans and soon moved in with my best friend and her son. We lived together for many years. I hid out in college going on and off for thirteen years. I read one book after another to understand what happened to me. I eventually received an M.A. in Speech/Rhetoric and also amassed many extra college credits. Currently I am an investor and forever a student.
I am repentant of the trouble I got into years ago and the embarrassment it brought to my parents. People that knew me when I was a kid remark that I sure changed my ways. I went through what I call psycho/spiritual/physical alchemy or I transformed myself by healing the past and living in the ongoing present.
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