I have written in the past about what I call the Convergence Point. I have defined the Convergence Point as the point in your mind where the unconscious part of your mind bucks up against the conscious part of your mind. The Convergence Point is where you tell your Self the absolute truth and grow by making a painful issue that you have held in the unconscious part of your mind, or even in part of your body, conscious. You bravely face this difficulty. You heal your Self by facing, analyzing and eventually resolving the problem. The healing for a particular issue is then ongoing. You honestly tackle your once unconscious problems one after another until you become quite conscious. You are developing your character. You become much more aware. You awaken. These unconscious problems were inhibitions that ran your life. These hidden parts of your Self made you behave as if you were an unconscious robot. You were pushed into robotic behavior that stemmed from the dark unconscious part of you which is sometimes called your shadow.
Now that you have awakened to your mind you begin to realize that other people are just like you and may be going through the awakening process the same as you. You have begun to be able to observe your own thoughts as if you were an onlooker observing the thoughts of your mind and also the feelings of your body. You are beginning to be conscious of your Self among others which is what awakening is all about. You are now seeing your Self in others. You are realizing that you are connected to other people by the collective energy that we share. You realize that you are not separate from others. You are becoming illuminated. You can eventually realize that you are connected and part of the energy of the whole cosmos.
When you are able to be as the afore mentioned you have met The Dweller At The Threshold. The dweller at the threshold is your True Self. It is your Supreme Self. Your True Self is the Image and Likeness of God described in the “Old Testament” and Christianity. Other traditions have different names for the Image and Likeness. It is your True Self “who” is awakening at the Convergence Point. After you have truthfully faced the hard issues about your particular and unique Self you have pretty much erased the Convergence point but there will always be something left until you are ready to become discarnate. You have become conscious. You are aware. You have awakened.
I was born in Wisconsin to a Roman Catholic family. My mother June was a talented writer and started her own service club. My father Joe was a Right-of-Way agent for Bell telephone. Joe was an avid golfer and overall sports enthusiast. Joe would play sports with me and I became a life-long athlete.
I was known as a rebel and was expelled from the Catholic school I attended at the age of fourteen. I was arrested at nineteen for being a thief and was placed on probation. Around this time, not being happy, I turned inward. I worked at different jobs that did not satisfy my budding inner life. I traveled down south several times reading books trying to find myself. In 1980, at the age of twenty-seven, I enrolled at a local college. I was now in an interesting environment. I was curious about almost everything and I eventually majored in speech and psychology or speaking and thinking.
Many people told me that I was funny. I was able to make them laugh about unusual subjects. In the summers of 1981 and 1982, while still a college student, I traveled to Minneapolis and pursued the art of stand-up comedy. During these summers I would write comedy, run twenty-five miles a week and perform comedy at night. I was also a juggler but did not juggle in my stand-up act. I took up Hatha yoga and studied nutrition. In Minneapolis, I interacted with the local up-and-coming comedians. Minneapolis at that time had a small close-knit comedy culture that produced a good number of comedians and some became quite famous. I was making audiences laugh shortly after I started. During this time I was also performing comedy in other cities. I planned on being a professional comedian.
Catholicism conditioned me to have a clear inner voice. I had to make people laugh and the only way I could see to do it was to be brutally honest with myself. I thought honesty would align me with common reality. The Sisters of St. Agnes, who taught me, always told me to tell the truth. So I was continually examining myself and weeding out delusional thinking. This became my way of life.
One day in 1983, I was alone at my parents house and all of a sudden I had a massive spontaneous kundalini awakening. The awakening of this spiritual energy made me realize my self. I achieved the ability, among others, to see through other peoples egos or read their hearts. I was forever changed. In 1983 there was no internet or otherwise easily accessible information for me to be able to find out what had happened to me. Because of the massive explosion of energy my nervous and digestive system had to rebuild.
Due to what happened to me, I changed my plans and soon moved in with my best friend and her son. We lived together for many years. I hid out in college going on and off for thirteen years. I read one book after another to understand what happened to me. I eventually received an M.A. in Speech/Rhetoric and also amassed many extra college credits. Currently I am an investor and forever a student.
I am repentant of the trouble I got into years ago and the embarrassment it brought to my parents. People that knew me when I was a kid remark that I sure changed my ways. I went through what I call psycho/spiritual/physical alchemy or I transformed myself by healing the past and living in the ongoing present.
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