There I was being tortured to death for explaining the essence of our humanity. Those who understood me were not present. This was the ultimate for frustration. I am a model. I forgave my killers because I realized that they did not know what they were doing (Luke 23:34). I realized that my killers had the exact same Self in them as I did but they did not realize this fact. I forgave them because they were not evolved enough to realize that I was the same as they on the inside of our Universal Self. I was explaining our Universal Consciousness that is, our Universal Mind, that is, God. I forgave them as nurturing parents do. I forgave them and everyone else with the unconditional love that a mother has for her child. The mother sees herself in the vulnerable child while realizing the child is evolving and does not know what it is doing. The loving mother knows that her child is testing reality. I planted the seed for humanity to evolve into the state of awareness for unconditional love. We need to lose our egos. I was trying to explain higher principles through the limited use of language. We all have the same Self in us that is simply in our different bodies and we are at different degrees of awareness for this fact. I was an example of someone with balanced chakras. I said that I and my father are one (John 10:30). I meant that I had eliminated ego obstructions in myself. I meant that the spark of the Divine in us all was radiating strongly through me. The Divine radiates through you too. I became One inside. The spark of the Divine in me overcame my ego. An inner alchemy takes place where the Universal True Self subsumes the false self. You are no longer divided inside. You can become One inside. I merged with the essence of God. Again, we all exist differently in degree for this internal merger. Us martyrs have it tough. We realize that we are being killed for being a voice of our Collective Soul. Again, put another way, we are all part of One Same Soul differentiated into our different bodies and we are at different degrees for the seeing and knowing of this realization. Realizing this fact has been called Self-Realization.
Published by Gary Hobbins
I was born in Wisconsin to a Roman Catholic family. My mother June was a talented writer and started her own service club. My father Joe was a Right-of-Way agent for Bell telephone. Joe was an avid golfer and overall sports enthusiast. Joe would play sports with me and I became a life-long athlete. I was known as a rebel and was expelled from the Catholic school I attended at the age of fourteen. I was arrested at nineteen for being a thief and was placed on probation. Around this time, not being happy, I turned inward. I worked at different jobs that did not satisfy my budding inner life. I traveled down south several times reading books trying to find myself. In 1980, at the age of twenty-seven, I enrolled at a local college. I was now in an interesting environment. I was curious about almost everything and I eventually majored in speech and psychology or speaking and thinking. Many people told me that I was funny. I was able to make them laugh about unusual subjects. In the summers of 1981 and 1982, while still a college student, I traveled to Minneapolis and pursued the art of stand-up comedy. During these summers I would write comedy, run twenty-five miles a week and perform comedy at night. I was also a juggler but did not juggle in my stand-up act. I took up Hatha yoga and studied nutrition. In Minneapolis, I interacted with the local up-and-coming comedians. Minneapolis at that time had a small close-knit comedy culture that produced a good number of comedians and some became quite famous. I was making audiences laugh shortly after I started. During this time I was also performing comedy in other cities. I planned on being a professional comedian. Catholicism conditioned me to have a clear inner voice. I had to make people laugh and the only way I could see to do it was to be brutally honest with myself. I thought honesty would align me with common reality. The Sisters of St. Agnes, who taught me, always told me to tell the truth. So I was continually examining myself and weeding out delusional thinking. This became my way of life. One day in 1983, I was alone at my parents house and all of a sudden I had a massive spontaneous kundalini awakening. The awakening of this spiritual energy made me realize my self. I achieved the ability, among others, to see through other peoples egos or read their hearts. I was forever changed. In 1983 there was no internet or otherwise easily accessible information for me to be able to find out what had happened to me. Because of the massive explosion of energy my nervous and digestive system had to rebuild. Due to what happened to me, I changed my plans and soon moved in with my best friend and her son. We lived together for many years. I hid out in college going on and off for thirteen years. I read one book after another to understand what happened to me. I eventually received an M.A. in Speech/Rhetoric and also amassed many extra college credits. Currently I am an investor and forever a student. I am repentant of the trouble I got into years ago and the embarrassment it brought to my parents. People that knew me when I was a kid remark that I sure changed my ways. I went through what I call psycho/spiritual/physical alchemy or I transformed myself by healing the past and living in the ongoing present. View all posts by Gary Hobbins